My friends know that when they don’t hear from me, something is wrong. Not in the sense that something bad has happened to me physically but that I am emotionally and/or spiritually unraveling. I like silence but usually am not silent with my closest friends for long. Silence for more than a couple of days sends up red flags to those people. It’s not good.
It makes me wonder what happens when God is silent. Does that indicate things are not good? I ask because I’m not hearing anything from God right now. He may be screaming at me but for some reason I’m hearing nothing. Zero. Nada. Zilch.
I need to hear something. I’m terrified right now. God is silent and my emotions are way out on the edge. I’m blowing up at nothing, at people I love, at anything that moves. I’m battling through it and I’m forcing myself to reach out to some folks right now, seeking prayers from some and advice from others and both from a few.
I pray I hear God’s voice soon. Or see a sign. I just want to know He remembers me.
Grace and peace.