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There are times I hear a song and it just resonates.  Fireflight’s “Desperate” did just that thing.

I’m in a “job transition” or what is commonly known as being without a job.  Money is tight.  It’s easy for fear of the future to run high.  Can I support my children?  Will I lose my house?  Why?  Why?  Why?  Lots of why questions to God.  I try to keep my faith up and eyes up and heart right with God but it isn’t easy.  Failure is easy.  Failing to remain hopeful and trusting.  Failing to maintain self control.  Failing to think God remembers me or cares about me.  I certainly get words of encouragement but words don’t pay college tuition and doesn’t stop bill collectors from calling.  Then I hear this song and it’s a new voice of understanding and a new rope to grab for strength.

Seek and you will find, they say
but I’ve been looking everyday,
for a way past this wall that’s in front of my face.
I’m on hands and knees searching for my faith

I know there’s so much at stake,
but I don’t know if I can take one more pat on the back saying I’ll be okay
Can’t you see my whole life is in disarray

You’ve got me desperate.

I know You hear me,
Would You give me a sign
Reel me in before I’ve fallen in line.
You’ve put me on a path I don’t understand
I’m standing on a ledge waving my hands

You’ve got me desperate (do You see me)
Desperate (do You hear me)
Desperate (will You help me)
You’ve got me desperate

I know You’re my only hope
The only One who truly knows how it feels, what it’s like when it all starts to fall
You’re the One I can trust, who hears when I call.

You’ve got me desperate

Grace and peace.