Sometimes, this is just life.
Sometimes the day just doesn’t go my way. I have to remind myself from time to time that it is not the events that matter as much as my response to them. I do not have to like the event or enjoy the event but I do have to accept it and decide what response I will choose. Sometimes my response comes from weakness and I throw lots of self-pity around. Sometimes my response comes from strength and I accept whatever happens and do the best I can to respond and keep moving forward. Sometimes my response is like a rollercoaster with ups and downs of strengths and weaknesses.
My VSW made a statement today that is bouncing around in my head. “I want to live thankfully.” What a noble goal. I am proud of her and thankful for her because I struggle to live thankfully. I accept so much of the muck that gets dumped on me and do the best I can but still fail to seek the things to be thankful for. For her. For family. For friends. For hope. For faith. For Jesus.
Today I will do my best to try and be more thankful. It isn’t always easy because I am in a situation that has pulled me away from the people I am most thankful for. Even though they are not close, they are still a part of my life and I am thankful for that. I may not do it perfectly, just the best I can. I won’t expect more of myself than I can give but be thankful for what I can give to being thankful. That will be enough.
Lord, I am thankful for you and for what you have and can do in my life. I pray for a big change and I pray it comes today. I also thank you for VSW for all she means, all she pours into me and the hope she gives me for brighter days.
Grace and peace.